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Questions Mary ask of me in her last few days 1

As a parent, our hearts get torn out when our child leaves this world suddenly. I had the greatest opportunity of my life when Mary came to be with me to help her through the transition from this life. One of the questions that Mary asked me as I held her in my arms was; Dad, are you disappointed in me? I ask, in what way. She responded, in how I dealt with having CF. 

My heart sank. I don’t think I will ever get over the fact that her genetic disease came partly from me.

I held her tight and told her how proud I was of her and that she handled her CF better than I thought I would ever be able to do. I told her how strong she was and loving, and how caring and how well she looked after Clara and the issues of raising a child as a single parent.

Clara, if you ever read this, just know your mother was a fine woman who loved you beyond measure.

I feel she was just too beautiful for this world and was ready to move on.

Love you forever!

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Notes to Mary

Hey Hambone;

I woke up thinking about you, as usual. Remembering these three photos that depict your glamor talent side.

I miss you like crazy.

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Getting Ready for the Miracle Child

Mary and Darren renovated the house in Kitchener to get ready for the new arrival.

I came over to help do some drywall and flooring.

Mary picked out the bed and we put it together. It is Oct

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As Long As I’m Living

This is a book that I read to Mary many, many times as a child. We often referred to it over the years as one of those shared moments of connectedness at our soul level.

When Mary was young she called Cystic Fibrosis “Sixty-Five Roses”.

There was never any doubt that Mary wanted to be a mom more than anything else in the world. When we played Life, Mary always took the road where she could add more kids to her car than money to her bank account. She always won when it came to taking care of the most number of kids.

Love you Forever!

I finished recording Mary’s Star Song today. It refers to these stories.

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Upcoming Celebration

It would be about this time of year that Mary was so excited about having a baby. Darren was as well. The love they had for each other at that time was vibrant and alive. Their love for an unborn child was united.

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Mary’s Star Song

Today, I honor Mary with the current wording of my song to her and her star.

TaDa

Seems like so long ago,

Thirty-three years so so.

You came and truly rocked my world.

 

Always Daddy’s Delight.

A Smile that lit the night

You gave me purpose and a Will

 

Refrain:

Now I miss you sometimes more than I can bear,

It makes me turn to see if you’re not there.

I hear your voice calling out for Daddy,

Cause as long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.

 

You loved to swim and you

Wanted to dance and you

Just wanted most to be a mom.

 

We fought together for a

65 roses war and you

Finished a winner like a pro.

 

Refrain:

Now I miss you sometimes more than I can bear,

It makes me turn to see if you’re not there.

I hear your voice calling out for Daddy,

Cause as long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.

 

You fell in love and you

Created a home where a

 

Special child could

Change the world.

 

You wanted Legacy

A promise you ask of me and

I said I’d make it be right for sure

 

Refrain:

Now I miss you sometimes more than I can bear,

It makes me turn to see if you’re not there.

I hear your voice calling out for Daddy,

Cause as long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.

Cause as long as I’m breathing, my baby you’ll be.